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27

gonna make a lot of money and quit this crazy scene

26

my pictures are so mediocre and so not on point with what's popular in photography right now.
i need to find something else to do with my life.

25

i miss all the people i used to be close to.

024

i don't know what it is about right now, but everything looks and sounds and feels so good, like pictures and songs and air. i don't know, maybe i got drugged or something, but everything is so vibrant now and just the other day everything was so bleak and blank and flat and i don't know, it's weird what two days of amazing melting foggy slightly warmer weather can do to me. i hope it doesn't get too cold again, january's gonna break my heart.

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the sky is white and the ground is white
here
EVERY DAY

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there's so much in me i can't make sense of, both physically and not, and sometimes i think i should take an anatomy class to understand how everything works but then that would probably just make me think even more. the way things work is wonderful, there's so much connected to everything but i feel like my synapses are always misfiring, i can't say what i mean to say.

i try to get everything out in pictures, but lately there's a disconnect there too. i am tired of everything falling through. i want to be presented an opportunity, no strings attached. i want life to take off. it's about dang time.

school started yesterday and i always like it a lot at first and think i'm never going to miss a class, but eventually i'll start to get bored and distracted --even though now, i swear, i am entirely invested, whole-heartedly and completely, i want to learn. but i also want to run. i want the snow to melt. if i don't get inside an abandoned house soon i'm going to die, i swear i will.

i can't wait for summer. i can't wreck people anymore. i need to get my act together. i need to chill the fuck out.